Before our wedding in October of 2012, I was 188 lbs. I was going to the gym, working with personal trainers, but never lost a pound! I always wanted to be at 165 and/or a size 8, but it never happened. Shortly after our wedding, we were ecstatic to find out I was pregnant! During pregnancy, I got up to 265lbs, but gave my self the a year to lose it…that didn’t happen. After our daughter was born, I didn’t do much to lose the weight.
I tried Isagenix for 2 weeks, and lost 11 pounds, and kept it off! I did a little Beachbody here, some C25K there, a lot of salads….but I was never serious about making a serious change in my life.
Then, a month ago, my friend posted this video: https://youtu.be/aeUaJ8HjNVs. Now, I love jokes. A rap battle can be pretty fun. Sometimes they get uncomfortable because the jokes hit below the belt. This one was teetering on that level for me, but I decided to continue watching to see why she posted it and said “Must watch to the end.”
WARNING: these jokes might be what some call serious fat shaming. They are harsh, they are mean, but watch all the way to the end. Oh, and there are a LOT of F Bombs.
In the beginning, Rone was doing his thing, spewing out fat jokes quickly (very well spoken may I add). However, at minute 1:53, it takes a turn. He decides to “F#!@ jokes, I’ll use reality to show that they are lame.” He starts talking about what it feels like to see someone overweight coming down the aisle on the plane, worried they will sit next to him. He’s still trying to be funny, but I’ve always wondered if people were thinking this as I was walking down the aisle on a plane.
Then, at 3:35, he starts to gets me. “The fact that you are FAT….says a lot about you as a man.” I insert WOMAN in my head, because what he says next is SO TRUE about me. “No long term goals, no perseverance, you can’t stick to a plan, you only care about yourself, you are stuck in your selfish ways.”
SO TRUE! I only think about how that chocolate cupcake will make me feel right now; how happy it will make me. How wonderful that Mac and Cheese tastes, and I don’t feel like washing all that kale to make chips. I don’t think of how much I’ll gain from this week’s meals, and that I won’t enjoy the pool with my daughter because I worry that people will judge me in my bathing suit, with my cellulite on my calves, and my stomach rolling over. But man…that cupcake tastes so good…right now. I’m happy now….how selfish.
I thought Rone got me with that comment…but he continued. THESE WORDS are when I decided to make a change: “And I get pissed because you have kids, and your children are going to grow, and it’s a tragedy, because being fat is all they will ever know. When your daughter was born, you probably weighed 355 pounds. If he walked a mile a day since then, he’d be skinny by now. So I don’t give a f#!@ if I lose today or f#!@in’ lose the race. Bro, you can’t win at life until you f#!@in lose the weight, bro.”
I need to not only make this life change for me, but for my FAMILY. I don’t want to be out of breath playing with our kids. I don’t want to shy away from events where I have to wear tank tops or a bathing suit. I don’t want to be soaking in sweat, telling them it’s time to go in, just because I’m too fat to enjoy the time with them. Why cheat my family of a good time, a healthy time, because I’m too lazy to put the work into being healthy? WHAT KIND OF EXAMPLE AM I? A plate of varenyky with tons of fried onion and sour cream is more important than my life? Than THEIR LIVES? Our children look up to us, they follow our footsteps. I’m not making this change just for me, I’m making it for them!
I’ve taken diet pills, counted calories, eaten prepared meals, joined weight-loss clubs. None of that taught me how to live my life. I’m too food obsessed, too TV obsessed, too sleep obsessed, too LAZY obsessed. I need to relearn how to fuel my body, to regain my energy, be free of always worrying what I’m going to eat next.
I chose to go back to Isagenix. Yes, it’s two shakes a day, but it’s also 3 meals a day on top of that. It’s not a weight loss program, it’s a nutritional cleanse and a relearning process. I could use the program for my whole life if I wanted to, or just temporarily to retrain myself. Regardless of HOW I’m going to get back on track of being healthy, I’m getting back on track, period!
Some might argue that this is a waste of money, eat more greens, get to the gym. Let me remind you: most of my days are spent being vegan. Most of my meals include a generous helping of greens. Weight loss and health are 80% of what you eat…only 20% is your activity. That’s why when I was working with trainers before our wedding, I didn’t lose a single pound that year!
I’d rather spend the money now on this phenomenal program to help me regain my life and health, than spend it on botox, liposuction, diabetes medication, hospital visits, knee replacement surgery, open heart surgery, etc.
Follow my story. I will continue to chronicle, and share with you my successes, and any failures. Knowing others are watching and following, helps me drive to succeed. I want to prove I can do this, I want to prove anyone can do this!
If you want to join me, let me know! I’d love an exercise buddy, recipe swap friend, or a even a group to cleanse with!